Sunday, June 19, 2016

conflicting

I ate 4 straight days of meal plan and I'm supposed to feel victorious but instead I feel like crap and bloated and fat. 
It was so so hard to deal with and I had so many urges to just not and say eff everything. But I did it and I can't for the life of me figure out why. 

For some reason I really wanted to do some bad things with my meds but I also didn't do that either. I don't know what's going on lately and I feel like I have no drive or core or direction. 
Everything I am has been shaped by something. I'm play-doh or a shell or I don't even know. 

sleep it off, sleep it off. We'll all be back tomorrow. 

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