Sometimes it's hard coming back
I don't remember much. It's really disorienting when people tell you what went down andI had surgery but I remmeber nothing.
I'm really behind.
Part of me's like "If you waited until break you'd've been fine", but another part knows that's probably waaay wrong.
I miss everyone a lot. I wish I was in Panto still.
But there's always hope for next month. Hopefully Ira will let me do it, because I'm ready, and I can do it, it's just that time isn't on my side this month. I get that. Things happen. He wants me to be safe and do what's best for all the people who worked so hard.
I gave myself a day to be salty about it, and now I'm at peace with it, mostly. I'm still hoping for december.
adjusting is hard. I'm gonna have a lot of work to do.
I need to gain weight again, this always happens with this. But I don't want to gain too much, that's a problem.
Things are gonna happen, and I'm gonna have to deal.
sigh
I don't remember much. It's really disorienting when people tell you what went down andI had surgery but I remmeber nothing.
I'm really behind.
Part of me's like "If you waited until break you'd've been fine", but another part knows that's probably waaay wrong.
I miss everyone a lot. I wish I was in Panto still.
But there's always hope for next month. Hopefully Ira will let me do it, because I'm ready, and I can do it, it's just that time isn't on my side this month. I get that. Things happen. He wants me to be safe and do what's best for all the people who worked so hard.
I gave myself a day to be salty about it, and now I'm at peace with it, mostly. I'm still hoping for december.
adjusting is hard. I'm gonna have a lot of work to do.
I need to gain weight again, this always happens with this. But I don't want to gain too much, that's a problem.
Things are gonna happen, and I'm gonna have to deal.
sigh
