okay, future me?
I want to eat. I have to eat.
Otherwise things will get taken from me, again, for longer periods of time.
I keep saying I'll stop when something bad happens. I will-for a time. Then I'll be back at it again with everything worse than before.
I need to be better for my future little. Whoever they are. They don't deserve a big like this. Sammy, you don't deserve a little like this too. I need to love you more.
I can take care of a plant but I can't take care of myself. I need to wake the fuck up and realize it. ugh.
I hate myself sometimes. I'm so rutted in this, I'm too far in.
my ocd is crazy because I am spiraling out of control and I need to control everything.
I need a hug and I need to cry but I can't let myself do that.
I want to eat. I have to eat.
Otherwise things will get taken from me, again, for longer periods of time.
I keep saying I'll stop when something bad happens. I will-for a time. Then I'll be back at it again with everything worse than before.
I need to be better for my future little. Whoever they are. They don't deserve a big like this. Sammy, you don't deserve a little like this too. I need to love you more.
I can take care of a plant but I can't take care of myself. I need to wake the fuck up and realize it. ugh.
I hate myself sometimes. I'm so rutted in this, I'm too far in.
my ocd is crazy because I am spiraling out of control and I need to control everything.
I need a hug and I need to cry but I can't let myself do that.
Hello Mandy. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I am blessed and feel privileged and honored to get connected with you as well as know you through your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I have been in the Pastoral ministry for last 37 yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with a great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. we also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai to work with us during your vacation time. I am sure you iwll have a life changing experience. My email id is : dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you, your family and friends. Also wishing you a blessed and a Christ centered rest of the year 2016.
ReplyDeleteHello Mandy. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I am blessed and feel privileged and honored to get connected with you as well as know you through your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I have been in the Pastoral ministry for last 37 yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with a great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. we also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai to work with us during your vacation time. I am sure you iwll have a life changing experience. My email id is : dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you, your family and friends. Also wishing you a blessed and a Christ centered rest of the year 2016.
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